When I was growing up my friends and I loved to be scared. We were adrenaline junkies, getting our fix one scream at a time. We would have weekly sleepovers- gather around our popcorn bowls, sit with our backs to the couch (just in case someone got it in their mind to sneak up on us!), grab our blankets and pop the newest scary movie into the VCR (youngin’s ask your parents). Fall was our favorite season; when Halloween rolled around we would head to the local haunted house- located at the volunteer fire department- and anxiously wait in line to have the beejezus scared out of us. We would watch people run out of the exit screaming and absolutely could not wait until we were standing in front of “The Devil” having the rules explained to us. We knew the teenagers that were acting as the “monsters”, so of course that gave them liberty to break the most important rule- “Don’t touch the monsters because they can’t touch you.” It is a lie.
I think I viewed every Horror movie that came out between 1980 to 2000. From Jason to Freddy, from Ghostface to the creepy kids in Children of the Corn or Village of the Damned- I knew them all. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was setting myself up for BIG trouble. I didn’t think about the fact that one day, I would be living in a house without my mommy! I would have to go outside, who am I kidding? look outside to investigate a strange noise. There would be times that I would be alone…at night…by myself…in the dark (you get the idea). The end result of all that scary movie loving is a grown-A woman that is scared of the dark, doesn’t sleep with my feet dangling off the side of the bed (the monster under there will bite them off), and has to do the mad dash around the house to turn off lights at night. Does anyone else do this absurd dance: 1-turn on the hall light, 2-walk to the room at the end of the hall, 3-turn on the light in the room, 4-go back down the hall to switch off the hall light, 5-walk/run back down the hallway to the room, etc. just to keep from having to walk in the dark?? It’s pitiful and weird, I know! Such a waste of time…. anyway, as I was saying, I am now a big scaredy cat! I know that all the gore and scariness from my youth has permanently damaged my brain and now I jump at my shadow. I have too active of an imagination and sometimes can’t separate the fiction from reality. Reading this I’ve realized I probably would benefit from seeking the advice of a therapist……
You’re probably wondering why I tell you all this information. The answer is this: My daughter is a maniacal monster who loves to scare me at every opportunity. Her favorite thing in the world to do is to hide around corners and jump out at me. Of course, I inadvertently give her the reaction she craves: clutching my hand to my heart, I holler (you read that right, I live in the South), jump at least a foot off the ground, and scream “Don’t ever do that to me again! What are you trying to do, give me a heart attack?!” She proceeds to stand there, laughing her villainous laugh, practically rubbing her hands together. I guess this is what I deserve after torturing myself my whole adolescent life with terror; a daughter that thinks scaring me is the funniest thing on the face of the planet. Lord save me from dark corners and my daughter!